DEAR IAN MAX,
This is my journey with baby loss. I lost our son at 21 weeks due to my incompetent cervix. I will go into detail about my pregnancy, how i found out we were expecting, how Ian was born, how our friends and family have helped, and just everything about the past year of grieving.
IAN'S MOMMA
My name is Kristal and I am a proud momma to an angel. I am 25 years old. I love working with children and I hope to become an elementary school teacher. Since a young age I knew I wanted to be a mother, I have the heart and patience for it. Finding out I was pregnant and with a little boy filled my heart and I was beyond excited. So, you can imagine the heart ache and brokenness I feel now after losing my Ian boy at 21 weeks. This journey has changed me and molded me into a new woman. I am whole yet broken. I am happy yet sad. I am here yet a chunk of me lives in heaven. I am still learning to live in this new reality without my son. Grieving is a never ending journey, some days you feel like you're drowning and some days you feel at peace and even thankful that you have someone who made saying goodbye heartbreaking. I am strong, brave and resilient. I am sad that I do not know the woman before Ian anymore but I am happy at who I am now and how strong I have become. This is me, real and raw.
